Saturday, June 23, 2012

Last Day of Work

My last day at work today was filled with mixed feelings. As most of my readers know, I'm a nontraditional med schooler, meaning that I didn't hit it directly after undergrad. No, I'm one of the special few that did something else after college, mostly because I had no clue what I wanted to do.

When I graduated with my bachelor's degree in Physics and Spanish, all I knew is that I didn't want to go to grad school right away. "Maybe later." For what? Who knew! I just knew I needed a break from school. I had been an intern in a medical interpreter program at the local hospital, and they had promised me a job just as soon as I got back from traveling in Germany. A bit before I came back, I got an email stating that they needed to fill the position earlier than planned, so I would not have a job to come back to.


Also that week, my at-the-time girlfriend dumped me, my car (which I was letting my brother use at the time) broke down, and my luggage got lost when I cut my trip short to go home and deal with everything. I then worked as an interpreter for an OB/GYN office for a few months before getting hired as a Spanish teacher for a local company. Once they learned of my ability with technology and media development (photo and video creation and editing), they hired me on as a full-time member of their HR team.

Two years into that, I was married and turning things upside down. Gone was the desire to "someday" attend graduate school for "something," replaced by a healthy passion for attending med school, fueled by the knowledge that it's actually possible to become a doctor by following a nontraditional path. If you want to know more about my core motivation, you can read a bit from my personal statement here.

Three years later gets us to today, nearly five years into my career as a Human Resources Technician - and the day when I finally cut the cord and made things real. That's right - it's no longer, "Yeah, in a little while I'll be quitting so I can take a break and start med school in the fall."

I just quit my job. There's no going back. I was committed before, but I've now effectively cut off any possibility of a retreat. Well, perhaps that happened when I signed for my loans, but the good news is that I know I won't ever actually WANT to retreat. It's just... There's a difference between knowing that you're going to head down a path and actually taking the first true step of commitment.

As we were driving in the car today, Wife said to me, "You realize that you're unemployed now, right?"

Yeah, I realize that.

"And that now, I'M the breadwinner??" She grinned, glee practically pouring from her pores.

She works part-time.Yikes.


Come on, August loans...


Jill said...

Good luck to you as you begin this new journey.

Justin said...

@Jill - thanks very much! It's gonna be a blast.

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